such an obstacle something not many go thru and i only hope there is something special building inside in me

 i am among lawlessness and false beliefs, always praying and rebuking. the other day a woman came by and was puking at the end, and last night a baby was screaming bloody murder, i think its excersism, demons being released those that god says i never knew u yea its sad.  i want to get the verse and translate it in spanish for joses dad, i just might do that, i should have no fear right? defend and back up with the bible not pretend i dont know. we have had no water for 2 weeks tomorrow, cuz others have not paid their bill in the area. it was raining and we been using that water but it hasnt rained in two days ,so we are using neighbors water and praying it will come back, for it is soo hot and we need to wash dishes and clothes. waiting on his sister to help us feeling miserable from lacking of i am only a child christian and maybe this will make me an adult? isaac is good we got his shots, but one. they dont even check him i dont even know how much he weighs or how tall. i am becoming really nasty from this since it was the only place to come to and i am still asking myself why and why so long the heat affects me more and i am so hating my life. i only like the nite when i dont have to think anymore and everything is quiet.